A couple of observations:
1. When my roommates were out of town for the weekend, I cleaned. Everything. We have two rooms and a bathroom between us, and I spent Saturday morning scrubbing, vacuuming and reorganizing. When they got home Sunday, the messes returned. Ugh.
2. I got a B on a paper. Not just one B, no, this has been my third B in this class this semester. I once even received a C. And it's a writing class - I'm supposed to be good at writing. I am working so hard at not being cliche in my writing that I am as a result very confusing and ineffective. Fail. Here's your 82%.
3. I will sell my soul to a project. I can't let things go. I will be the infamous workaholic parent if I'm not careful.
4. I lie awake at night making plans. I focus on my projects (see #3). I think about my grades (see #2). I think about how messy the room is around me (see #1).
My poor soul has forgotten how to rest.
This ... isn't an ideal way to live. Shocking, I know.
Part of this is my personality - I am a driven and goal-oriented person. But I am also giving into worldly demands. I don't have to be the best. I don't have to have things my way.
I need a Sabbath - from everything.
"Do not be afraid, O worm Jacob, O little Israel,for I myself will help you," declares the LORD,
your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.
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